Sacred Journeys & Wisdom

What’s in a name?

Yesterday, I shared an experience of change and understanding through which I came to release on a personal level confusion and to come to a place of forgiveness and love in a situation, which opened the door to an expanded understanding of how the situation involved multiple layers of energy.

This is often the case I have found when something comes forth to be released within us which is holding us back or affecting our spiritual work and growth. The reason for this is the establishment of a pattern within the collective consciousness into which others may tap to aid in their release process, from the same or a similar energy affecting them.
In this particular case the personal process was not yet complete, and since the understanding and lesson of this next part can aid others it is being shared.

(If you have not read yesterday’s blog of June 26, 2006 it would probably help to read it first to more fully understand what is being shared)

To briefly summarize yesterday’s: The personal experience of confusion regarding the change in spiritual work and the lack of sharing on the part of Spirit with me as to what was happening, had a greater effect than I had thought in my working relationship with the Lord and Spirit( The Heavenly Hosts). To transform this first I had to unconditionally forgive, and ask for forgiveness and release those feelings on a personal level. Then it was shown how an energy had attached to me upon my journey, which wanted to affect the working relationship. This then had to be released also, but this was not the end

Yesterday afternoon, it was shown to me why when I thought I had released these feelings early in my journey, the core cause which had remained buried unto which the outside energy had attacked. This came in the form of a poem.

Throughout Time

Throughout the eternity of time and space
I traveled upon the string
The cord for many a temple I lay
But never invited to tarry within.

Then one day the Lord bid me enter
A joy it was to belong.
But soon he sent me away again
Off to another center.

Why, I wonder?
What did I do?
No one answers.

Once again I travel the String to lay the cord
Perhaps one day again I’ll belong.

I had not realized this piece I thought I had long ago released, which has been with me through many lifetimes had been once again triggered in this change of situation in my life. I as many have had abandonment issues which surfaced in this life when triggered by an event but had really begun in lifetimes before. I had thought that the issues had all been worked out, and I finally, had felt very secure in the Divine Presence and working with the Lord in this lifetime. Believing fully that the One whom I/we could always Trust the Lord would never abandon me or let me down. I no longer had a fear of others going away, which had been strong in me previous to releasing and transforming that energy. I also had thought I had released and transformed the energies of being sent away, or not belonging or being accepted, but obviously there was a piece still lingering. In this it was a feeling that those whom we should be able to trust completely were keeping something from me which effected me, and were sending me somewhere away from that which was the Divine Temple into an unknown place without explanation as to why or what would happen.

Now, quite honestly had I not had any lingering piece within me, or had I the strength to stay within the Divine Presence, this would not have affected me nor would the energy have been able to attach to me. But, it was there and this did happen. In realizing this, I was able to once again go through the process of recognition, release, and transformation of this energy.

Yet, the experience has not yet been completed.

Within this experience, I was as the following question.

Why should it matter where I was being sent, or what I was going to be doing? Was it not sufficient to merely be in Divine Spirit, in the moment, ready to do whatever was asked or presented unto me in that moment?
Of course, in fact they had been speaking of this and preparing me before my journey, I now realized. There had been two pieces of this given to me, that I had understood in part, or on one level, but evidently not on the greater level needed consciously.

Two Beautiful spirits before my journey had shared messages from Spirit.

The first had to do with the title of this blog – what’s in a name? – The message was from Thoth of Raismes also known as Thoth/Hermes the Thrice Great. This was brought through a Dear Spirit, Rev. Maia Nartoomid of http://www.spiritmythos.org. He shared some of the energies that would be present at each location of the journey and this piece – which last night I realized was the key piece in understanding what was happening in the change of work process – he said:

You are finding your own strength in that which attracts your incarnated being in this life. It is now time to move beyond former identities and re-create the being you are that does not need specific form to feel complete. This is a progressive path, so you will still find yourself in "identity", but as you develop, more and more of the need for identity will fall away. It is important to fully BE in the moment with all you do.

What does this mean and how was it the key? Before going into that I feel I should share the other message which came through. A beautiful soul called Eri El Morningstar, The Angel Lady from Crestone Colorado, http://www.anglesuniverse.com. The angels had told her they wished to do an initiation for me and so we sat in meditation together for this to unfold.

After this beautiful spiritual blessing, the angels said: ‘that my soul contract was complete’, this was the second time this had occurred in my life, the first being at the age of 33 when I had completed my karma and had a near death experience in which I was given the choice as to stay or go, to stay I had to dedicate myself to the Divine Plan. Now, I was being told that contract which had been completed, I realized at that time it had to do with this change of work with The Lord and the Heavenly Hosts.

The angels said that within the next three months I would be called before the Counsel to establish a new contract. This was a period of determining if I wished to stay on earth, and what direction I wished to move in the work. This being quite different in being a participant in what was happening over being told a change was occurring and no other information.

My statement at the time being: “ I choose to stay and to do that which is of the greatest benefit to all.”

Yet, I now realize this was giving me information, that although Hierarchy has planes and might not be sharing them, with free choice, I can choice to serve or not to serve. I had spoken my choice to serve as needed, yet that piece of being sent away within me, that was not cleared had left the opening for this energy of duality and dissention to enter, and cause confusion, seeing a separation coming from Spirit as forced, when it was really within me.

I was shown last night that I have choice in this, and I had spoken that choice, and asked to remember what I had spoken to the Lord and Spirit before the trip and since, that I was trusting in the process of spirit, even though I didn’t see or know the full picture. I had forgotten, or perhaps more appropriate to say would be that I had wanted to trust, but that part of me that was confused/EGO didn’t fully trust, like my soul and spirit trust.

EGO – that brings us to the KEY shared by THOTH in this experience and learning process. THOTH is a beautiful Illumined Master of Light, who has been with Earth since before recorded time, guiding us. He has been with me most of my life and I am thankful that He brought this KEY.
EGO- Work- Trust the Process – What’s in a name?

In today’s society and I believe throughout most history people were identified with the work which they did, sometimes in early times the last name coming from the work of the family. In this thought frame, last night I was asked by Thoth what was it that bothered me the most about being reassigned in my work without being asked or little being shared.

He said, look at what you pledged to stay and do that which would benefit the most.

He began to go through some of the same questions that had come up early in the trip, when I had thought I had released and transformed this energy before Crestone.

He asked if it was leaving the center where the Lord works or the unknown work.

Did I think I would be abandoned and left to work alone?

A bit of both, for I did not understand why I was being sent to work somewhere else what had I done. That was the why the poem had come forth earlier. Also, there had early in the trip been this apprehension of the unknown work, but I had come to realize that I was not being sent to do something alone, that whatever would need to be done, Divine Spirit, and the Heavenly Host would be there to guide me, that truly it was not me doing the work, but God through my form. So, the second part had been overcome, it was the first that had still existed.

Then Thoth asked, why it was more important to me to work in the center with the Lord rather than another center? Did I not know that in doing that which would serve the greater good, that no work was lesser or greater, nor place of service?

Yes, I did know that and believe it. So, I had to search within me to see if there was a part hidden that did not believe this fully. That was when he reminded me of that which He had shared before the journey began.

That was it, there was a piece of me that had come to see my SPIRITUAL IDENTITY based upon my working relationship with the Lord. I had even been speaking of this with another being, Amanda a few days before. Realizing that a group of us who had a connection through the Lord, had each spoken with Him at some time and held within us a belief at some point either before or after his appearance, that the funds would be available that we would be working side by side with Him.

However, I had been hearing that what was now being asked by Spirit, was that each of us trust in their guidance, that we had been preparing all of our lives in specific areas, and gaining skills, that would enable us to serve the Plan in the best way possible, and that we needed to trust that they were preparing those positions. That what was needed was to be bringing the Light into the world and preparing more and more to come into the Divine Presence. To bring the Truth and Light into the World. The Lord had been preparing us so that we could go forth into the World.

I had heard and one part of me was prepared for this and yet it seems another part hidden had been holding onto this resistance. It wasn’t that I was feeling this need to work side by side with the Lord, it was this thought that it was being done without any words, or communication with me.

I had not put together the pieces. HOW DENSE AM I? I was being told and shown consciously by spirit. I guess the hurt and confusion came because the one I trusted the most, THE LORD, had not shared this himself, but had left it to others, and MY DESIRE BODY/EGO had expected more from THE LORD.

MY mind kept saying if He had just shared it there would have been such a difference. But, that is neither here nor there, for it is released to Spirit, to be transformed, and I am sorry, for the pettiness of my EGO, and I trust He will forgive me.

Then we come to the final understanding that of which Thoth Shared the key and that with which I am now with and working upon in my personal growth.

It is now time to move beyond former identities and re-create the being you are that does not need specific form to feel complete. This is a progressive path, so you will still find yourself in "identity", but as you develop, more and more of the need for identity will fall away. It is important to fully BE in the moment with all you do.

WHAT’S IN A NAME? EGO.

Right before my journey began in a sharing with Amanda, she asked me why I was using a name other than my birth/married name. This was a topic that I had thought about sometimes during the last 20 years. I understood her question because I had wondered then why ones would use a name other than the name given by their parents or their married name, that which was legally their identifying name.

I have since come to understand this on many levels, and now a new one was coming forth. My answer to her at the time was that when I was first given a name by spirit, which I use with some but not all of my spiritual friends/coworkers it was told to me that it was because it carried a specific energy signature that would help me in a specific spiritual work, or at other times a name is an energy signature of another or higher aspect of our spirit that helps us to grow spiritually. So, since doing the spiritual work I have been given several different names.

Amanda had asked something about how that connected with my identity of myself and would I ever change my name legally. I have thought about it and the time may come when I no longer work in the business world, and do only the spiritual work, when I may do so. What I have come to realize previously and the main thrust of what I am experiencing now is what THOTH said, letting go of Identity which is connected to EGO and FORM.

When I began to feel comfortable with the differing spiritual names being given as well as being called by my birth name, was the first steps in letting go of Identity of form coming with a specific name and realizing that I am energy and spirit more than form. It really doesn’t matter to me which name I am called, if one is directing an energy either by question, thought or action to me I will respond. I remember often Spirit saying they in their Essence have no name, they often for our convenience and need in communication with them give us a name to call them but they are beyond name or identity. This being a whole subject of discussion in itself.

Eri El, the Angel Lady shared that in some Native American Tribes, a person may have many names in their lifetime as they grow up and change as a person or spirit.

So, I was learning to move beyond identifying myself solely with the name of my form and understanding that names are energy and merely a way of identifying form. I was realizing and manifesting in my life the aspect of understanding, that when we move more into spirit, names are energies which can help us to do our work and evolve. However, this understanding wasn’t happening fully on all levels.

I had still caught in my spiritual work with my spiritual identity being connected to my work with the Lord. The messages I was hearing in spirit weren’t fully sinking in and manifesting, although they were taking root on the conscious level, that hidden part was fighting them, WHY?

I came to realize last night because I didn’t know fully on the conscious level what I would be doing, and felt sent away from what I did know, without a sharing as to why. When I could let go of that and remember that Spirit is who I am not what I do, and that in the Presence all Power and Help is there to do the work through me and show me where to go and what to do, and that all there is – is now, and to want to know what will happen next is of the EGO and Desire body which is not of the Divine, then I could let go of the lower and keep my ATTENTION upon the Divine.

This is a progressive path, so you will still find yourself in "identity", but as you develop, more and more of the need for identity will fall away. It is important to fully BE in the moment with all you do.

I had been in the Identity, and now I can let it fall away, by staying fully in the moment in all I do.

Thank you THOTH.

The angels had told me to quit beating up on myself, they said:

You have been working so hard for your Spiritual growth and to fulfill your Divine inheritance of ascension and enlightenment/ Union with Divine. Your work and dedication has not gone unnoticed in the Hierarchy, remembering that time on Earth is not an accurate reflection of time in the higher realms. In the higher realms, you have already ascended, you have already brought the full glorious Divine Light fully through and into every cell, every atom and every molecule of your physical body and transformed yourself into radiant God light. In your world on Earth, however, you feel that things are moving “slowly” that you are making little progress, feeling “stuck”….. If only you were able to fully see and understand from our perspective how this is an illusion, a trick the mind plays with time. Remember that fear is only your ego trying to control what choices you make and how dedicated you are, the fears you have about being stuck or not making appropriate progress are just that: fears, there is nothing else to them yet so we do not want to CREATE what you fear by dwelling on it, do we? Remember what you dwell upon, you create.

SO WHAT”S IN A NAME?

Identity, of the ego – or a step to enlightenment.

In Light and Love

Shimayah